the only thing that’s keeping me sane right now is the fact that there’s a kitty on my lap
How can someone literally just completely act like you never existed? It’s been nearly 7 months and you think it would get easier to cope with but it doesn’t. If anything it’s getting harder because I continue to lose faith more and more every single day. I invested so much time and exposed myself to you, and I have never truly done that with anyone… ever. This hole in my chest just continues to fucking grow and I’m at the point now where it’s becoming extremely pathetic but you cannot truthfully tell yourself that it’s that easy to live without someone so important. Today has just been so bad/stressful and everything is popping up all over again because I miss being able to go to you when I have bad days. I’m tired and I apologize for ranting. Just needed to post this somewhere.
THERE IT IS AGAIN! THERE IT FUCKING IS! i’VE BEEN TALKING ABOUT THIS PHOTO FOR YEARS AND NEVER COULD FIND IT!! THE LAN PARTY WITH THE GUY DUCT-TAPED TO THE CEILING!! BACK IN ANCIENT TIMES WHEN PEOPLE STILL USED CATHODE MONITORS AND WHEN COUNTERSTRIKE WAS THE NEW THING. THIS SHIT IS REAL. THIS IS REAL SHIT. SHIT THAT HAPPENED.
It’s one of those nights where I want to just delete everything and start all over again